i live my life,i do what i want...

Friday, February 16, 2007

chinese new year

chinese new year coming but i am not a least bit anticipating.main problem is i dont have a internet access. I MISS DOTA. I MISS ISLAND DEFENSE. I MISS ALOT OF THINGS.

this part is for all my primary school friends:dont bother to go find out who i like, go do some thing more constructive.dont waste all your precious time on finding the answer.ok if you all insist on finding i cant stop you all.ok la actually quite easy to find la because alot of people know who i like, even she herself know.so should be easy to find the answer.

here some very weird thoughts that came into my mind today:boys and girls are basically cagetorise into two group. the first group is those handsome handsome pretty pretty kind,no need to go chase people 1.people will come chasing them.then the second kind is those not so good looking kind,poor poor thing.they are the ones going around chasing people,because no one will chase them.haizzz so poor thing.alot of my friends fall into the first cagetory including HER.then i am the only 1 that fall into the second cagetory.haizzzz hahahahahhahahaha.

i'm a sinner | 3:00 AM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

some thorough thinkings

today, went to malaysia with my family. then stay in car nothing to do, then started to think of some weird weird questions which only abnormal people like me will think of.

what is the point of living in this world?enjoy?or suffer? for the sake of others? or others for the sake of us?

what is the ultimate goal of all people? money?results?friends?relationship?or some other crucial things that you must have in your life?

damn weird sia as there is no right or wrong answer, it is up to you to decide. which lead me to 1 last weird question.

has god pave the path for us? or we are the ones paving the path towards each of our own individuals future?

god unlock the door for us? or we are the ones holding on to the keys to our future?

it is really funny that why would i think of such weird and profound questions. i myself also dont know why sia.so can some kind-hearted soul come and 'enlighten' me? hahahahahahaahahah so funny sia. HA WHAT HA SIAO AH

i'm a sinner | 3:52 AM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

wat should i do?

i confessed to her.now she decided to give me a chance to prove myself that i am not 'playing' her.however,i dont want her to give me the chance,because i dont want to get involved in these type of things at this stage of my life.i told her that i like her is just to let her know my feelings towards her and nothing else.i didnt expect her to give me the chance, i just want the both of us to be normal friends again.so i decided to end this matter once and for all,i SMSed her and explain to her about how i feel about the matter. and then she reply that i am treating them like fools but she was not angry.i was depressed.the reason i didnt prove myself is because my family will sure object against it and as i mentioned earlier i dont want to get involved.anw she already like another boy, all the more i should stop this as continuing it will only cause both of us to end up being hurt.and i am not 'playing' her, why would i play with this type of things.

now i am totally confused, i dont know where all my thoughts are heading to.because of my recklessness i lost a good friend.now i dont know whether to let this matter die down,or buy a present to apologies to her and see if the situation can still be save.

if you ever see this, i know it is impossible that you will forgive me but i still want to apologies to you

　　　我不希望你原谅我，我只想对你说“对不起”

i'm a sinner | 2:33 AM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

fine fine fine

i now announce that those who know the owner of this blog go ahead and condemn him

i want to be hated, i want to be a bad guy.

it is very hard to be a good guy,i dont care how the others look at me.i do what i want,i dont care

　 一失足成千古恨。

i'm a sinner | 12:36 AM