i live my life,i do what i want...

Thursday, April 19, 2007

what has happen to the society?

just what has the society become to?just now a old man aboard the bus and as usual he cant stand well so he need a seat but the bus was full.guess what, another old lady gave her seat to him instead of all those youngsters siting there dreaming.school always invite people to talk about basic manners and did we ever listen to it? reflect on it?the society had change from bad to worst and we teenager are the main cause of it.will u felt ashame if u saw that scene just now?

forget about it. now i just have a feeling that the girls are getting more complicated,u never know when u offended them and worst they will act as if nothing has happen and theres nothing u can do.the feeling is bad real bad haizzzz.people always say"i dont look at the appearance but the personality...." hahahaha in the current society u can find many people saying this sentence but do they really mean it? honestly i myself also do look for appearance then personality.

other than that u will often see situation like this in school " john, i give u my apple"then john reply" Ali, i give you my pear." then they will be happily hugging each other shouting" we will be gd friends forever !!!!!"they said that they will be gd friends forever but do they mean it? who knows, they might just turn against each other and stab each other at the back. haizzzzzzz

i'm a sinner | 12:48 AM

Friday, February 16, 2007

chinese new year

chinese new year coming but i am not a least bit anticipating.main problem is i dont have a internet access. I MISS DOTA. I MISS ISLAND DEFENSE. I MISS ALOT OF THINGS.

this part is for all my primary school friends:dont bother to go find out who i like, go do some thing more constructive.dont waste all your precious time on finding the answer.ok if you all insist on finding i cant stop you all.ok la actually quite easy to find la because alot of people know who i like, even she herself know.so should be easy to find the answer.

here some very weird thoughts that came into my mind today:boys and girls are basically cagetorise into two group. the first group is those handsome handsome pretty pretty kind,no need to go chase people 1.people will come chasing them.then the second kind is those not so good looking kind,poor poor thing.they are the ones going around chasing people,because no one will chase them.haizzz so poor thing.alot of my friends fall into the first cagetory including HER.then i am the only 1 that fall into the second cagetory.haizzzz hahahahahhahahaha.

i'm a sinner | 3:00 AM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

some thorough thinkings

today, went to malaysia with my family. then stay in car nothing to do, then started to think of some weird weird questions which only abnormal people like me will think of.

what is the point of living in this world?enjoy?or suffer? for the sake of others? or others for the sake of us?

what is the ultimate goal of all people? money?results?friends?relationship?or some other crucial things that you must have in your life?

damn weird sia as there is no right or wrong answer, it is up to you to decide. which lead me to 1 last weird question.

has god pave the path for us? or we are the ones paving the path towards each of our own individuals future?

god unlock the door for us? or we are the ones holding on to the keys to our future?

it is really funny that why would i think of such weird and profound questions. i myself also dont know why sia.so can some kind-hearted soul come and 'enlighten' me? hahahahahahaahahah so funny sia. HA WHAT HA SIAO AH

i'm a sinner | 3:52 AM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

wat should i do?

i confessed to her.now she decided to give me a chance to prove myself that i am not 'playing' her.however,i dont want her to give me the chance,because i dont want to get involved in these type of things at this stage of my life.i told her that i like her is just to let her know my feelings towards her and nothing else.i didnt expect her to give me the chance, i just want the both of us to be normal friends again.so i decided to end this matter once and for all,i SMSed her and explain to her about how i feel about the matter. and then she reply that i am treating them like fools but she was not angry.i was depressed.the reason i didnt prove myself is because my family will sure object against it and as i mentioned earlier i dont want to get involved.anw she already like another boy, all the more i should stop this as continuing it will only cause both of us to end up being hurt.and i am not 'playing' her, why would i play with this type of things.

now i am totally confused, i dont know where all my thoughts are heading to.because of my recklessness i lost a good friend.now i dont know whether to let this matter die down,or buy a present to apologies to her and see if the situation can still be save.

if you ever see this, i know it is impossible that you will forgive me but i still want to apologies to you

　　　我不希望你原谅我，我只想对你说“对不起”

i'm a sinner | 2:33 AM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

fine fine fine

i now announce that those who know the owner of this blog go ahead and condemn him

i want to be hated, i want to be a bad guy.

it is very hard to be a good guy,i dont care how the others look at me.i do what i want,i dont care

　 一失足成千古恨。

i'm a sinner | 12:36 AM

Sunday, January 28, 2007

wat luck i have today

today suay like hell.morning my bro drove me to school then lang ga another car.they argued,i just went in to the school as i cant help much.ok i thought this will be the end but malay lesson something bad just happened.teacher never come then the so call relief teacher come in.she just talk to us all sort of principles and we didnt pay her a least bit respect lol.then shinyi take her hp out to check something then the teacher saw and confiscated it.ok then we all just keep scolding.the teacher go other side to confiscate another handphone then nicholas go take shinyi hp and all the girls pass around.aiya so long la the story.then superman come and they confessed. then he scold them,then i keep scolding him because she also involved.all sorts of vulgarities keep coming out from my mouth.too long la dont want to say already.luckily nicholas no need to cane just need to call parents.then everything went as normal.
damn sian la today, nan hua school hours so long ,lesson so sleepy.

i'm a sinner | 11:49 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

GOD PLZ TELL ME WHY

it took me a full 1 whole year to forget her and i thought everything will be over.but you came in and i was totally fond of you, your smile, your features,your actions is just so..... so...... attractive so...... unresistable.now i just cant get you off my mind, the sight of your wonderful smile just keep appearing in my mind,i cant get rid of it.i thought playing computer will temporary put you off my mind but it didnt go as i expected.worst, i cant even concentrate on my gaming,i just keep losing i dont know why. MAN!!!!! my mind just keep showing the picture of you.it is like my mind and i is two separate things , i cant control it.
you are just so different from her. you are much more friendly, much more gentle......... just so different, i cant describe it. i felt so happy whenever you talk to me, or smile to me.my mood dampen when i saw you cried today,i dont know why.i was anxious when you didnt reply my sms, afraid that something might happen to you and thoughts just keep coming i cant stop it. but 14 years old is too young for BG relationship.how i wish i can grow up instantly and i will drive her home everyday.but i dont expect her to like me,i wont interfer with her matters,wont invade her privacy ....... thats the problem when you like a person, you just hope that she will be happy everyday and wont mind even if she doesnt like you, it just doesnt matter.
why is it that i just manage to forget 1 and another 1 came, stealing my soul and mind from me again. why god have to create human with emotions????? why god have to create this thing call love???? why god always like to prunk me????? why????
(sister if you see this, dont worry i wont neglect my studies)

i'm a sinner | 11:15 PM